There is NOTHING to be embarrassed about at all. We are all human and just like you said, some of the "negatives" are just as important to the journey as the "positives". After the Anaheim show, I had a full day of gluttony, a few days back to being good, and then an evening of totally pigging out. I weighed myself the next morning and was up 9 lbs from my show weight, which happens to about the same weight I started the prep 15 weeks prior. I was mortified! In addition to the weight, my belly stuck out like I was pregnant. My stomach was turning upside down, I was super lethargic, and simply put, I felt like sh*t.
I spent about an hour or so feeling like the biggest loser. I went for a walk to get fresh air and clear my head. During the walk, it hit me that I hit a fork in the road. I could take 1 of 2 routes: 1. Feel bad about the "regression" and keep going down the slippery slope or 2. accept, move forward and LEARN from the experience.
I got back home and started to journal. I wrote down everything I was feeling. I reread journal entries from the prep. I spent an hour thinking about future goals (with weights, work, life, marriage...) and wrote down goals and steps to achieve the goals. I felt more motivated from that experience than I have been in a long time...I went to the grocery store and stocked up on fresh veggies and lean proteins. I cooked for hours (something that helps calm stress).
For the next few days, I went back to eating super clean. Ya know what, I felt better, my weight dropped 5lbs and things were getting back to normal.
The "negative" experience has done so much more for me to move forward than 10 "positive" experiences. Yeah, it sucked to go through and now set me back a bit but, as Gina worded it, I put it in my mental bank to learn from and refer back to in times of weakness. I can honestly say I am very grateful for the "negative" experience. It's from experiences like that that make us grow.
Wendy, you have 8 weeks of rockin out a great program. You had a little slip, just like everyone does. You have already achieved 2 solid months of being really good. Don’t feel ashamed and don’t feel like a failure. What happened in the past is in the past. It doesn’t dictate what today will be. Move past, learn from the experience and hop right back on. Enjoy a healthy clean meal and reflect on your progress!
We are all very proud of you!